I recently shared my “7 days in black and white” challenge pictures on Facebook. I wanted to put all seven together and showcase part of my life. So here it is, 7 days, black and white, no people, no pets, no explanation.
What’s your #7inblackandwhite?
Or, I will be very soon. It made me think about the things I have learned as an adult and how much I still don’t really know or understand. Like molecular orbitals diagrams. I am just never going to get the hang of drawing those diagrams!
There are some things I think I’ve figure out okay, though. I pretty confident in my own abilities. I know my limitations. I understand when I am pushing myself to my limits and when I can give more. I think a lot of people are still working on figuring those things out, so I’ve got that going for me.
There are things that I just haven’t figured out yet, though. How to stop blaming myself for other peoples’ failures or faults. That’s a hard one as a teacher because I want to blame myself when my students don’t “get it”. I know some of the blame is mine: how well did I deliver the material? How clearly did I set my expectations? But I need to keep in mind that a lot of the blame can also be shouldered on them: How much did they study? How hard did they work for it? How often did they come to me for help and clarification?
Or how to stop worrying about what other people are going to think about me/judge me. I don’t worry so much about strangers. Eff those people who judge without knowing me. It’s more the people in my life that I worry about judging me or thinking less of me. If I do this, will my friend not like me any more. If I say this, will this person stop talking to me. Why hasn’t this person texted me back yet? I must have done something wrong. I need to keep in mind that people are busy, people are honest, and I can’t control what others ultimately think about me. The best I can do is be the best version of myself possible and know that the people in my life like me for who I am.
How to live in the moment and stop worrying about what happened in the past. I find myself thinking about past mistakes a lot when I should be enjoying current moments. I need to let go of those past mistakes by acknowledging that they happened, but moving on by trying to not make the same mistakes again. Making new mistakes is a given. Doing the same thing over and over again is one definition of insanity.
Another year old, but maybe not another year wiser. I look forward to having more experiences, making new mistakes, and enjoying all the wonders I can.
Happy birthday to me!